Life.... What to say about it? I can say this.. I am a really lucky woman. I have the most amazing, patient, and calm husband! I love him so much!! Sorry I am probably making you gag by now. Well life is ok! I am living day to day! To be honest I am getting a little depressed. Please pray for me that I may stay looking to God and not slip into that. I don't think that I could really explain how I have been feeling. Guilty is the only word that comes to mind. I just can't seem to stop blaming myself for the miscarriage. If only I had not taken birth control at all, if only I would have researched it more. I feel like a murder. I wish that I could forgive myself.

Well I am still looking for a job now. The people told me they were going to hire me and then POOF they changed there mind. If you hear of any full time jobs please let me know! I REALLY need one. Chris and I are surviving but things are beginning to get really tight.

So it is finally offical. Chris and I will be moving next summer. I will miss everyone here so much. to be so far away will be hard but I know that we will be ok. I think that everyone needs a new fresh start. Maybe that will help me a lot! Well love you all! 

So I have a question for you... Do you ever feel that no matter how hard that you yern and strain to please someone that you seem to always fail? Ugggg I feel so frustrated! Thank you God for giving me patience! well I miss all of you guys. And I really miss hearing from anyone. I love you all and leave me one if you would like!

HOLY COW!!!!

HOLY COW LESS THAN TWO WEEKS!!!!

So I can't believe it but I am getting married in less than two weeks! I don't think that I have ever been so happy in my whole life! So I thought I would post some pics of my amazing prince! I hope I see you all at the wedding! hey there is going to be FREE cake!!

Tirzah, Matt Chris, and me \on my birthday!

I love this pic! he is such a hottie!

Oh boy he is such a hoot!

So It was my birthday and my turn to blow out the candles and chris stole my moment! Here you see me giving him a talking too! hehehe

Isn't my baby so pretty??

32 DAYS AND COUNTING!!!!!

So it is finally only a little more than a month away. I can't quite explain all the emotions that are going on right now... except for the fact that I can't wait until I get to marry the most amazing man I have ever known! UGGGGG.. I am soooo excited! WOHOO!!

I have been working a lot! I turned 19 yesterday so I had yesterday and today off of work. It was soo nice to have a break! I work 7 days of the week and I get pretty worn out! This next Sunday afternoon I am having my bridal shower and I am excited about that! The Sundays are getting better and better!

If you didn't know Chris and I have taken over the youth group at Webster park until the new youth pastor comes. It has been a lot of fun so far but it is going to be a HUGE challenge. The youth group is made up of 8 girls and 1 guy! This will be interesting for Chris I am sure! He is a hoot! I think I love that man! hehehe~

Well if I could also ask all of you to please pray for me! I am going through a lot right now with planing a wedding and the fact I no longer have a car. Chris doesn't have one either so we are really putting all of our faith into the fact that God will provide. Chris got in an accident on Sunday and totaled my car. He is ok only by the power of God though! Thank God for that! well love you all